this is what youve done to me. but you have no idea you did it.

all i want to do is say "you ruined me you ruined me you ruined me." but i cant. its not true. i was ruined long before you. i just didnt know it. someone else ruined me. they did it. not you. but now i realize. and it will happen again. i can feel it. at nite. its why i dont sleep well. see, the thing is, i lied before about that. sorry.

and i found the words i was looking for. dissapointed. empty. scared. nervous. worried. confused. questioning. jealous. anxious.

written @ 8:43 pm on 06.12.04
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