* now
* then
* me
* the move
* rings
* wishes
* exit
* dland
contact
* contact the girl
* love notes
* leave your mark
* instant
* in the flesh
: reasons to want this.
i have no clue whats going on right now. i havent slept more than 5 hours in any given nite in close to 2 weeks. tomorrow was supposed to be my last day. its not going to be. instead i'll be in NH at a hotel all by myself for the next 9 days. can you tell im thrilled? i dont eat. i dont sleep. i just work. and work. and read books. and try not to think of you. which i undoubtedly do anyway. no matter how hard i try. i cant believe that my last 2 weeks spent in this state are practically void of you. its ridiculous and it makes my heart hurt so much more that i ever thought was even possible. im here for 9 days. and i bet i wont see you once. you act like you couldnt give two shits if we ever spoke again. and to think, all i wanted was to be appreciated. i guess im just to demanding. *sigh* whatever. i dont even know what im saying anymore. i need to go have another smoke. and go back to the hotel. to do nothing. but think. about how much i hate this situation.
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oh and also, i set up an interview with another kids/baby store in c-town for the monday i get back. im so excited. i dont have to worry about not having a job to go home to now.
contact
* contact the girl
* love notes
* leave your mark
* instant
* in the flesh
: reasons to want this.