*sometimes you just need to love.*

where i dream i kill my favorite grandma.

i had the worst dream last nite.

i was drving down the coast of california on highway 1 in my old car and my mom and grandma were in the front seat with me and two other people (who i cant remember) were sitting in the backseat.

for those of you who have never driven down highway 1 it is right on the coastline, and curvy and mountainy, and usually foggy. its just a bitch basically. in other background news, my old car never had the quickest brakes in the world and it didnt handle curves very well. now back to the dream.

i was drving and it was nite time. it was pretty foggy out, too. we were all talking and laughing and having a good time when suddenly i looked back to the road and there was this really tight turn right there. one of those turns where youre going west and once you go around the curve youre now suddenly going east. so i see it and slam on the brakes to slow down which just sends us skidding across the road and the car starts to roll. first the right side hits the ground, then over on our top, then the left side, then back on our wheels and we stop. some how we were all suddenly out of the car. i was fine, so was my mom, and i think the 2 people in the back were fine too. but my grandma was lying on the ground trying not to go over the edge of this cliff thing, so my mom and i ran over to get her. when we pulled her up she looked okie, but bruised up and stuff. she said her chest and ribs were hurting so for some strange reason we got back in my car (which looked perfectly fine) and kept driving, pretty soon there was a hospital and so we pulled in. the doctors told us that her ribs had punctured her lungs, kidneys, and stomach, and that she was going to die. and then i woke up.

so i suppose she might not have died. but i woke up completely scared to death that i had killed my own grandma. and completely angry that the road hadnt had one of those huge signs that says "dangerous curves ahead" or anything like that. i was all hellbent on writing to the government and demanding that start using signs that are electrical and light up and give good warnings way ahead of time on every single road in america. then i remembered that it was just a dream.

crazy huh?

written @ 10:59 a.m. on 2001-04-05
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