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hypoglycemia?

ive always wondered about diabetes and what it would be like to know that if you have this disease you very much carry your health on your own shoulders. its a disease where you can actually take charge of it all by yourself. you have to remember to give your self the insulin shots and monitor your blood-sugar levels and eat a proper diet and get the right amoung of exercies. i know of very few other lifelong diseases where the patient can have complete control over their health. and it amazes me when people with diabetes dont take care of themselves. it seems relatively easy to me, unless of course you are deathly afraid of needles.

im not really sure why im writing about this considering i dont no a single person in real life that has diabetes. the other day though, when i was at home during break my mom said something to me that really struck me. she said, "i think you might be hypoglycemic." im a pretty smart girl so i knew that people both with and without diabetes can be hypoglycemic and i knew it had something to do with your sugar levels, but i wasnt sure why she just said that all of a sudden. so i asked her. and she replied with this: "have you ever really paid attention to yourself when youre hungry? cuase you sure do act like youre hypoglycemic." i was kind of in shock cause in all actuality i dont really pay attention to myself at all.

and so i looked at what was going on with myself, cause at the time i was starving. and i realized something. my moods really do change depending on how hungry or full i am. when im the least little bit hungry i start to get more irritable and by the time i hit starving, oh my lord you better watch out because i can be quite the little bitch. and looking back ive realized ive always been this way. as soon as i get something to eat (or even just a glass of water) and my body starts to process the food, i feel 10 times better. more relaxed, less nervous/anxious, less tired, less confused.

i think i am hypoglycemic. i really do. because food really shouldnt have that much of an effect on your mood. seriously.

written @ 2:18 p.m. on 2001-03-28
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