* now
* then
* me
* the move
* rings
* wishes
* exit
* dland
contact
* contact the girl
* love notes
* leave your mark
* instant
* in the flesh
: reasons to want this.
so so.
thats my life right now.
so so.
im so happy to be going home soon, but on the other hand, im super-duper sad too.
today is friday, and on wednesday nite i took a friend that i made here, a german guy named chris, to the airport so he could go home. and on the hour-long bus ride home what did i do? listened to dave matthews and cried my eyes out. i finally realized how much im going to miss all the friends ive made here and how nothing is going to be the same when i get home. im also really worried about how my friends are going to act now. i feel like ive changed a lot and i dont know if they will be able to deal with that or not. i really hope its not too bad. and chris, oh chris. hes one of the sweetest, most genuine guys ive ever met. and such a little cutie-pie. unfortunately he doesnt see this in himself and he thinks hes just a guy that all the girls dont like because he's "too short and too much of a friend to them" in his exact words.
poor guy. if he was from the states instead of germany, i wouldve asked him out in a second. but i dont want to even try a lond-distance relationship right now. so i didnt do anything. damn me.
contact
* contact the girl
* love notes
* leave your mark
* instant
* in the flesh
: reasons to want this.