its too cold in here.

if love was as easy as the movies make it out to be, no one would ever be sad about it.

but love isnt easy. its hard. super hard.

and im tired of crying more nites than i dont. and im tired of feeling like im not good enough. and im tired of not being appreciated. or at least feeling that way.

cause who would know if he fucking appreciates me? he sure as hell doesnt say he does. he doesnt say much of anything lately. and all it does is make me cry. and i wish i could fix his broken little heart so that it could even imagine the realm of possibly loving me. but i cant.

ive been as loving and caring and nice and not pushy as long as i can. but i cant wait in limbo land like this forever.

remember how she fucked over your heart by leaving you in limbo land for 6 months? well thats what you're doing to me. and you're right. it sucks. hardcore. and i got tired of it. and i think if im going to be stuck in limbo land, id just rather not. if you have a different sort of situation to propose, then go ahead. im all ears.

im sorry. but this is just too hard for me.

written @ 11:03 am on 29.08.02
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