someone else?

i just decided that the following entry isnt entirely correct the way i wrote it to begin with. i would not fuck this other person if i could get away with it. id like to rephrase that sentence to say that "if i could get away with it, id like to take care of someone else..." b/c i would. i have strong feelings for this person, but i just spent 4 hours in the dead of the nite with him, and i didnt have the thought to jump him cross my mind even once. so no need to worry eric baby. i wouldnt fuck him even if i could.

***if i could get away with it...id fuck someone on my staff besides my boyfriend eric. but i cant get away with it. so i wont.

is that sad?

does it mean i love eric any less?

nah. just means im attracted to someone. and i think its more of an emotional thing than a physical thing. i just feel for him sometimes. and i wish he'd get his stupid act together. really fast.

thats all for tonite kiddies. im dead tired and i have a final exam tomorrow at 12:00 pm. its 2:00 am now. that means i have 10 hours to go. i havent studied at all yet, and i need to get some sleep too.

so off i go...***

written @ 06:03:08 on 2000-11-16
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